inspiration

what inspires you?

in your life?

in your day?

in your art?

i am thinking about that today. and ill post my thoughts later.

Vans

updated 9:12 pm:

for me-what inspires me. life…

first and foremost, my children in every way. the things they say. the way they look. the way they sound and smell. they inspire me to photograph, write, create, smile, try harder, be healthier, be nice and be kind. they inspire me to take care of the world so that they have a better place to live. they inspire me to be a good example.

light inspires me. looking at light. shadows. looking at the way things are lit. the way people are lit. sitting in light. feeling the light, the warmth. the way it glows behind people, lights up their hair and their eyes. the way it changes the way the world looks.

music inspires me. everyday, i listen to music. if i could, i would listen to it all day. in many different forms and manafestations. music for my every mood. my every activity.

color. color combinations. repetition of color. surprises of color. unique shades of color. peeling color. glossy color. vibrant, muted, any color.

love. love inspires me. feeling love. giving it out. watching others around me in love, feeling love, giving it out. being touched by love. love makes me want to try harder for it, work harder for it. make sure other people feel it. make sure my home is full of it.

in my daily routines

the things that inspire me are the surprises. the things that make me pause. take note. mental or literal. make me smile. make me cry. make me feel ALIVE. from a sweet conversation with a little girl. to a race between boys. to the smell of my favorite candle. to a song that comes on at the perfect moment. to a laugh between us before we fall asleep.

in my art

color, the things the kids say, lyrics, memories, happiness, commercials, music, texture, pattern, words, letters, fonts, photographs.

light, laughter, families, love, eyes, smiles, emotion, ideas, shapes, texture.

moments like this make the fighting, yelling, video game playing, farting, burping, running, punching, wrestling, and other misc grossness all worth it

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drew reads to nathan every night. sometimes nate stays in his bunk and falls asleep in minutes. other nights he climbs in with drew to look at the pictures. i LOVE that they do this.

having boys isnt easy. for me. i tend to react to them as if i was a nine year old girl and they are like, TOTALLY grossing me out. i have to constantly remind myself that i am their mother, not their peer. i have to train myself to actually like the way they smell after they play outside. instead of comparing it to how my brothers room used to smell and how gross i thought he was. they are my boys. my boys!

but

it is really loud in this house all of the time when they are both home. i dont do so good with loud all the time. and i dont always get what they like. i am such a girl. ugh, rolling my eyes, swords and video games again? i have to remember that they are sweet little people even though they are boys and crazy most of the time. they are sweet little people who love each other oh so much. and they love me.

i am so glad i had two of them. i am so glad i had THE two of them.

i am so glad that i get to raise two little gentlemen. two little men who have a "special crazy" sister and a little sassy one. who they protect and take care of. who they help. i see in their eyes the love they have for the girls. i see it already the overprotective nature they have for them. i love raising them. i really do. trying to break that typical male mold. trying to open their eyes to other things. other ways of thinking. teaching them to be emotional and sensitive along with rough and tough. teaching them crying is okay.

helping them create a bond between themselves that will never ever break.