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quiet.

I feel a little bit quiet right now. In the eye of the storm.

So here are some photos from a quiet midday, still in my pajamas, while making cookies for the kids to come home to. I hadn’t planned on photographing this. But once I got everything out and fired up the oven, I remembered that I had told myself to pick up my camera more. I have been missing it, missing just shooting for myself. My kitchen and I were the only subjects around. It just kind of happened.

Looking at these, knowing I have them, makes me feel good. This is a big part of my life as a mom. Hair in a bun, working from home, no make up on, comfy pants, cooking something up for the kids, appreciating the quiet. This is a story that hadn’t been told for me yet.

Random thoughts that came up when looking at these:

I wear aprons when I cook because I have a bad habit of wiping my hands on my clothes. Better to wipe on the apron. I also hate washing clothes. I also don’t mind wearing a dirty apron.

My kitchen is small and my black cabinets soak up all the light. (We painted them with chalkboard paint when we did some home renovations back in 2007.) Cooking for six isn’t easy in here. Cooking for entertaining is nearly impossible. That counter is my only real working space. If I had a bunch of money it would go towards the kitchen. Knock out a wall, bring in an island, create a more functional pantry, have a few open shelves…

Anything in bulk that I can put in a jar, I do – because my pantry is tiny and overflows onto the top of the fridge. No flat space goes to waste. And jars are beautiful.

Brown eggs are beautiful, too.

Pyrex is also beautiful. I have been collecting Pyrex for at least ten years. I don’t have a lot, but the pieces I do have, I got cheap, and I love.

Most of the things in my kitchen have been purchased second hand. I love scouring thrift stores, flea markets, and garage sales for beautifully worn in bowls and containers.

A huge jasmine bush blooms just outside that kitchen window. A great idea that the previous homeowners had. All white carpet was not.

That little red pan on the stove sits there semi-permanently. It is the pan I fry eggs in every morning.

I have a scrabble tile rack above my sink. One word to remind me. The word used to be SMILE – but the E fell into the disposal awhile ago. Now the word is SLIM. That works for me, too.

But not until after I eat some cookie dough.

xo

Tara

Unrelated PS –

For Japan with Love has raised over $55k. THAT IS AWESOME!

I will be making final decisions on a graphic designer this week. Thank you to all who have applied.

Ali - Love. Just love.

margie - your face is adorable

Darlene - Beautiful

Joanna - I just love reading your posts and seeing your photography.

Jill scripps - i love this tara. (i used to have those pj pants too! i wore them until they couldn't be worn anymore.)

stacy bostrom - very lovely. and you make me miss my nose-ring.

Heather M - I am always one of those people who feels like every thing has to be just so. I love to know that its an art to have a lived in home. Your home is perfect. And please...more cowbell. Please.

Jenny - Inspired. :) Inspiring. :D

Shawna - You are gorgeous! No makeup? Are you kidding me? I don't think you could pay me to post a pic of myself on my blog with no makeup...but that's exactly why I admire you. Love this post.

Kirsten - Miss T...only you could make cookie dough and an apron look so cool. And I love finding old glass and pyrex bowls, too. The best :)

jessica o'brien | jessohbee - these are extra extra beautiful. i was just thinking today that i wanted to get back to more "real life in the moment" type shots. we too put all of our flour, sugar, beans, grains, nuts and such in glass jars - both those from the bulk bins and those that come packaged. i've found i eat so much more of them when i know they are there! your kitchen oozes with charm.

amy b - lookin good winfrey. miss you.

isabel - these photos just spoke to me. i had to comment. i love your kitchen. i feel so much love and worn in happiness just looking at these photos. hope that's not weird...haha.

mollie - You are lovely. Great post. I am sneaking a spoonful of cookie dough out of the fridge now...dough that hasn't made it's way to a pan...and probably never will. :)

Miz boo - I loved seeing a peek into your day. I love quiet.

mollie - darn it. I know "it's" didn't need an apostrophe.

Sarah H. - Love, love this. I was just thinking today about how much I love just silence sometimes when I'm home alone just doing my "mom" stuff. These pics represent those kinds of times perfectly. Thanks for the reminder to capture them!

amy tangerine - i. am. so. in. love. with. these.

Carolyn HP - Love your honesty, your words, you are such a beautiful soul, thanks for always inspiring me :D

Comfort Images (photography by Meredith) - You're beautiful, Tara! And I love reading your blog! It's so personal and great. Your photography is lovely

Emma - Love.

Shannon - These are fuggin adorable. You are most beautiful just like THIS.xo

aileen - I love your quiet. And your kitchen. And this post. Really looking forward to seeing more of "you" through the eyes of your new designer. Good luck with the decision on who best to capture your vision.

Anne - Love this post, love your glasses, love the yellow pyrex bowl and awesome turquoise hand mixer. Absolutely love "more cowbell" written on your chalkboard cabinet. XO

Ria - Love these pics... and just have to say that you have killer eyebrows Tara!

Sarah Costa - I love everything about this post. Your self portrait is fantastic too. I have a love affair with pyrex (and I only buy what I find super cheap) and a kitchen that is also too small for preparing meals for my 6 ;-)now I want to see the finished cookies

caro - Total treat today! Thanks for the beauty of this personal collage.

launa - i love that even though you don't have much space....i don't either....that you keep beautiful things around you! i can learn from this...i tend to keep things barren thinking it will seem like i have more room.....when i actually love things comfortable and lived it! ......i love pyrex too ;)

Karyn - amen for aprons. Mine looks extra silly right now sitting high on this preggo belly, but it does the trick. =) I love cooking in the kitchen pics, random pyrex, and my 1981 oven that is just like the one I grew up with. =) awesome post. http://www.flickr.com/photos/kayak57/3654301205/in/set-72157612207299928/

Gina, Mom to The Shoe - Absolutely more cowbell!!!! I. Love. And I'm so jonesin for those kitchen cabinets!

Darcy - Just love these. And love all your random thoughts. Really love "more cowbell" written on your cabinet - is that from the SNL skit with Christopher Walken?? Love it :)

Ashley Martinus - I think we could be friends.

Sarah Jane - I love this post AND... I am SO RELIEVED to hear that I am not the only one who likes to remain without makeup and comfortably lounging in my jammies. My mother gives me grief (as an adult and mother myself)... "wouldn't you be more comfortable if you got dressed?"... to which I reply "NO, actually I am quite comfortable, really!" NOTE: we also disagree on bed-making... she thinks it is "inviting" to crawl into a bed that is made - while I find an unmade bed MUCH MORE INVITING because it is already ready to climb into!)

KathleenB - LOL! at the scrabble tile demise.....way to go with the flow!

cheryl - LOVE your kitchen. Mine is small too (lived with it for 28 yrs.) and when I saw your pics, I thought it's ME!! I do love your chalkboard cabinets - so unique and YOU use them!!!!

Melissa Giles - Quiet is good. I think we could all use more of it. This is a beautiful post, very inspiring! You are a true artist!

Jennifer - I love every single one of these shots. Absolutely love them. And your glasses? I covet them in the worst way.

Beth K - Love these photos!! The color in your kitchen just pops w/ the cabinets black. Your kitchen is laid out just like ours was in Corona, CA! AND the same window view...kinda spooky when I saw this, as it looks like our house did! (we moved outta state in '02 though)

Jakki - I love your chalkboard cabinets... I love your neckline...very strong but also graceful I love your jars... and I love a peak inside the every day lives of people...thank you!

monica b - love.

Kelly Rodgers - You are absolutely gorgeous Tara. Inside & out. A fabulous glimpse of your day to day xxx

Nora - Pretty sure that this is my favorite post ever...love every single little detail that you documented.

Amy Beardshall - LOVE....thanks for the pics! And hey lookin' good....not too shabby for still being in your jammies I say! Also SLIM made me SMILE so I guess it's still works as SMILE! :)

Ryann - So beautiful. Your kids will treasure this story... It is such an inspiring reminder to make more photographs like these for our little people.

Starr Mercer - this made me so happy Tara...thank you for sharing a bit of your day. I agree that a bit of QUIET is so enjoyable

magdalena - I love you!!!

Manda - I don't know you, never seen you in person, and yet I feel like we could be friends. Weird. Your posts about family and motherhood are so raw, i guess it's just so easy to relate. Thanks for being you. :)

c.c. - Totally random, but opening this post and seeing that yellow Pyrex bowl (especially filled with the ingredients to make cookies) made me smile. I have the same one - it was my grandmother's, and we used it together to make chocolate chip cookies when I was small. When she passed away that was the one thing of hers that I absolutely had to have, and now my 5 year old and I use it together (ONLY for making Chocolate chip cookies!) I swear making them in that bowl makes them taste better :)

leaca - I love chalkboards and so your cabinets are speaking to me...literally.

tracey - I love these photos of real life, but honestly couldn't get past that first pic of the bowl and ALL THAT BUTTER. I want that cookie recipe. And what about an IKEA island for the middle of your kitchen?

Krysta Manthe - Adore you, I do. Love sitting in that kitchen. Love you. xo

Sonja {sodafoto} - This really spoke to me. Lovely words and lovely pics.

Sarie - You are BEAUTIFUL, Tara. Do you know that? When I look at that shot of your face, those brown eyes, your nosering, your lips, and hair and glasses, everything is so authentic. It is all so beautiful. It's what life's about. I'm sure you are so glad you took these----

Kari - Grampa called brown eggs "cackle berries". . . they remind me of him. What a lovely gift for you. And your kidlets.

jo marks - love the peek inside your quiet time (and home), you are beautiful :)

angelica - I love this series. I do this too ( well, try to) photograph the mundane, the every day, I think it is usually so beautiful but so mundane we often forget to see it. I love your kitchen BTW, and the idea of searching for old pots to put things away in. (and teh chalk board cabinets). Can I ask how you manage to put up so many pictures togetehr? is that one of the "actions" you told us about once back in the days? last (I promise) can I ask what lens allows you to take a self portrait so close?

shelley rankin - oh you speak to my heart. This is so much like me most days. Working from home, in my pj's... baking for the kids as this is my all time quiet time. I love the time when I can bake. Your kitchen is small but screams love!

Courtney - Tara, as always your photos slay me! They are gorgeous! I love the chalkboard cabinets too! But I must know where, oh where did you score those eye glass frames??? They are awesome and look great on you! Thanks in advance!

Joanne - I've been a reader of your blog forever - love absolutely everthing about it! Your photography is gorgeous and your words, well beyond touching. I was struck by your self-portrait though - your eyes look sadder than I ever remember seeing....hope all is well in your life.

elizabeth pellette - Love these photos Tara..seriously they are awesome and its something your kids will cherish for years to come.. and I know you said your kitchen is small but it looks to be about 5 times bigger than mine, and way prettier.. if I ever have a boatload of money I am getting our kitchen redone.. our home is over 200 years old and the kitchen is tiny and really not so great for cooking anything.. and I am cooking for six too. I love your black cupboards the chalkboard paint is an awesome idea. Need to incorporate that somewhere in my home in the future.. You are beautiful.. in so many ways.. Have a great day e xo

Nicole (@NicoleLJ) - I love these Tara! I love the chalkboard paint. I've been meanign to do my island in it and this is the push i needed! Now that you've lived with chalkboard paint how do you like it? Would you do it again?

Paula S. - LOVELY! You, the post, the pictures, the quiet, the mess....it all speaks to my heart. I wish I was home baking cookies for my kids right now. Instead, well, I need to get back to earning my paycheck. Thanks for the break.

Kim - I should add in that there is going to be a fundraiser in the OC for Japan. It's called, simply enough, OC 4 Japan.

Angela - Love the hair up and the messy but homey kitchen. You're a lucky girl!

em - that kitchen of yours, as imperfect as you see it is such a yummy, happy, homey place to be. i miss hanging out there so much! loved pouring over these pictures, and remembering all the little details. and your beautiful face. love you xx

em - ps i can't believe 'more cowbell' is still up! i'm so pleased!

Lisa @celebrate CREATIVITY - I love the simplicity of these photos. Your kitchen is adorably lived-in and totally real in every way. Your counters are their own little vignettes with a story to tell behind every angle. I know I've commented before about your uber-writing skills. Lovely. This is the kind of simple journaling about everyday things that we all forget (or don't bother) to record but would be so meaningful to our kids and family years from now because it provides another glimpse below the surface. Great reminder to write down the "everyday" for posterity. I also like the way you incorporated the chalkboard paint into your cabinets. Fun idea. Your self portrait is sweet and a bit pensive. Enjoy your day (and the cookies).

Stephanie - How come you weren't on that list of beautiful? You are you know.

Gina P. - these images so remind me of me at the moment. i love seeing the world through your eyes.

Karen H - Just.Lovely. BTW, when you are missing your camera, we are all missing your camera too;). I love it when you shoot (and write) just for yourself. I know it is not for us (can I speak for all your readers? LOL), but it resonates with us and that is why we keep coming back...TFS

jody - As much as I am dreading my babies growing out of babyhood/toddlerhood, one thing I do long for is quiet time in the kitchen. These are lovely and real. Thanks for sharing them.

Mamafeelgood - I love love love my Pyrex. Nothing beats the Princess bowls. I need a glass door shelf in my house to display them.

Trude - Photos of the everyday are the greatest. I've been reminding myself to pick my camera up at home more too, even if lighting conditions aren't "perfect" and despite what a bitch it is to white balance in the kitchen. Loooove this series, and your apron! :)

Jenny Blaauw - Lovely to be able to share in your quiet moment. I honesty is beautiful.

arianne - You are amazing. Thanks for inspiring me with every post!

Kristal - I love seeing your hair in a bun. Very cool how you got that pic of your hair like that. My favorite pic is probably the one of you in the microwave with your cabinets showing. Oh, wait...I love the one of you with the apron, too. They are all delightful and I admire your honesty and writing. I have been envious of the chalkboard painted cabinsets since you painted them. Still can't convince my husband. Your pictures make me long for some quiet time.

Fi - What a lovely post. We so often don't want to show the real us, only the glammed up version that we want people to think we look like all the time - ha, as if! :) You've inspired me to pick up my camera more often too, and not to complain so much when my husband only takes photos of me looking terrible in my daggy PJs! :) PS. Your work is brilliant! Love it!

steph - Love these, now I must have an apron.

ANDREA JOHNSON - I love this post!! Love that handmixer too! ;-)

Sheila Hamilton - This looks like such a lovely way to spend an afternoon. I have serious issues with my kitchen too. I use it as an excuse to not do much in there. Your photos make me want to.

kristin - i love every single shot and word. i too have a mix mash of thrifted pyrex that i love, a cast iron skillet that is permanently affixed to my stove, i love comfy clothes and totally dig your specks. these kinds of photos put me at ease with life and ooze a sense of calm quiet that we mommas need to see. love this post. thanks for sharing bits of your real life with us. xo kristin

mellie price - I've looked at these several times. They feel all nice and homey, but when I look just now all I saw was butter! Goodnight! Is that 7 sticks of butter? :)

Daniele valois - ok, this is freaking me out. We have the same exact kitchen. I also painted my cupboards chalkboard, it is tiny for our 5, and IT IS THE EXACT same! White time, black appliances etc... trippy that the cupboards are painted the same too. I totally rock the mom bun, no make-up, apron look too. You are way cool!

Daniele valois - and the post is incredible too. The calmness in the kitchen, no kids anywhere, yet preparing for them. Your solitude.

Tobi - Your kitchen is beautiful, even if it doesn't feel like it to you. Looking at it makes me want to come over in my house clothes and apron, and have a cup of coffee and solve world problems...and stay long enough for a cold beer too!

Rachel - love seeing the insights to your house. once again, love your blog- real.

kimberly - one of my fave posts ever. you know already that i love to see YOU, your home, what your day is like. to know that you and i really ARE alike...... this for me was a total and complete surprise. a total and complete treat. i will never get my thailand trip back (the way it *should* have been) but i hope some day to hang with you again (eat mexican, get a pedicure, whatever)....hit some thrift stores, flea markets...farmer's markets...outdoor market....beach....take a trip to somewher else. i liked my time with you and em (and the others) even though i was still in shock about james and at that point i hadn't yet grasped what was to come, and the changes i would make. just saying hello.... :-)

Kami Vanous - I didn't think I could look up to you any more than I already do. Then I noticed that you have "more cowbell" written on your cabinet. :)

Nikki - Tara, Wow is really all I can say. It's so wonderful to see a working Mom taking ME time but also doing something for her family all in one moment. I often tell myself I need to just pick up the camera no matter what is going on in the homestead but... I always have an excuse. I am inspired to stop coming up with these excuses... I love seeing the "Inner Tara". You are awesome, as already stated... Quick question.... Do you shoot mostly in Manual mode or a semiauto mode such as AV or TV?

cathy - Oh my God, Tara. I LOVE this. I didn't see it til this morning. I want to be sitting at your table, hanging out, watching you make cookies. Then later that night, we all head out to that Mexican place you love so much. I am missing your presences today. xo.

Julie - As alway, beautiful Tara. When I think of you... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2EIeUlvHAiM

Anonymous - Ahhhh your cabinets are so cute!!

Stacie Enriquez - You look so at home in your kitchen with your apron, like a little girl at heart . . . . Adorable & Beautiful = Adutiful <3

Kira Lauren - Love everything about this. ESPECIALLY the chalkboard cabinets. Super jealous!

GinA - You remind me to be more thoughtful in my day. :) Love the yellow Pyrex, just like mom's.

Carrie Hasson - i love this. so much.

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